17th May 2018

Today was pretty typical. I'm still stuck in this rut. I know I need to exercise and eat healthy but these habits are hard to break. I should have said no to the bagles when we went to Costco. I should be better about portion sizes. I need to go to the gym more. Can't keep making that joke about my gym membership being a fat tax. I also can't rely on Jamie or someone else to go with me. So I need to come up with a plan, one that I can stick to, one that is doable.

I think just starting the habit of going to the gym should be the first step. I am need to be ok with starting small and working up to more. So I'll go to the gym, do a few minutes on the rowing machine, maybe a few weights, and leave. I think my biggest hurdle will be getting up early enough to go to the gym or summoning the energy to go after work.

My speed bump with energy and motivation right now is mostly to do with not getting enough sleep. I'm pretty sure I have sleep apnea. All the pieces fit. I have been trying to figure out this whole night guard situation with my dentist. I'm realizing though that I may not even need it if I can figure out the sleep thing. And figuring that out could solve my energy and motivation problem. Before I can even think of taking care of my sleep issue I need to figure out how much it costs. And really my priority medical problem is my lipomas. They have gotten a bit bigger in the last couple years. It worries me. But the sleep thing is making me feel a lot shittier than the lipoma thing.